so there.

i finished most of what i wanted to accomplish yesterday. i didn’t get to start on my visual diary or work on any of my own personal art projects, but that’s okay. that daunting laundry pile (…okay, maybe piles…) got folded/hung/put away.

and GLORY BE, i finished that god-forsaken alien paper! nine-hundred-something words. the guy that sits across from me read part of my paper & really wanted to draw my alien. i’ll take that as a compliment. 🙂  alas, he doesn’t get to draw mine for his project, b/c he forgot to bring his paper today, so we couldn’t trade. so i traded with another lady. i was able to scan over a couple of different papers, & it was very interesting to see what we all came up with! mine is very simplistic, as i am of the belief that, if there are beings out there in other distant galaxies or universes, they would probably be highly advanced and evolved forms of humans. so i used that belief in my paper. whether or not my instructor thinks that’s creative enough is another story…

anyway, i injected some modicum of class & grace into my alien by making its name a combination of humphrey bogart and lauren bacall.

and its planet is named after myrna loy and clark gable.

so there.

right now i’m sitting in starbucks, contemplating doing some of my own writing. i haven’t gotten a chance to write since last week, so i think i need to. i realized that i didn’t have any earbuds with me on my way here, so i swung by a store to get some. i opted for the oblong-shaped ones that fit inside your ear like a doctor’s scope thingy, but they keep slipping out. maybe i have small ears.

i can’t stop listening to bon iver. i hope you can’t either.

also, i still have to walk/run today, and it is f-f-f-freeeeezing outside!


today’s goals.

1. finish writing paper. for my drawing class, i have to conjure up an alien and write an 800-word description. tomorrow, we’re trading papers and drawing each other’s aliens. it’s a weird assignment, but i understand why we have to do it. the art programs at my current school are focused more on graphic arts, illustration, & animation. in that type of job, you’ve got to be able to take someone’s words and turn them into their vision. i, however, am too lazy and selfish to make art according to other people’s tastes. just kidding. i realize artists must compromise their vision sometimes… anyway, i have to finish this freaking paper. i’m up to 323 words. ha.

2. fold all my laundry. this is quite the daunting task. i’ve got two loads that have been sitting in a basket for weeks, and i just washed two loads. sigh.

3. work on my visual diary for my photography class. we have a list of specific techniques we need to look for in magazine photographs. we’re supposed to cut them out & paste them in a book and write a short critique.

4. i *want* to work on my own art projects!! alas, an art student doesn’t have much time to work on the projects they really want to, i suppose.

and here is how i feel about of all of this nonsense:

and while i am accomplishing (hopefully) all of these tasks, i will be listening to bon iver. i made you a playlist so you can listen too. 🙂 

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stupid homework.

what i should be doing:

stupid history homework. i have a quiz & paper due by midnight. sigh.

what i’m actually doing:

daydreaming with my textbook & notebook open. also admiring my sparkly zebra shoes. er…and blogging…

what i really want to be doing:

art on my own terms. i have *so* many cute ideas for paintings & other projects right now. (these words were cut out of felt & stuck onto a gessoed canvas. the gesso wouldn’t spread right, but it ended up looking really cool–like a whitewashed wood panel! i’ll have to get an up-close detail shot of it sometime.)

i completed a still life in drawing class today that i actually didn’t hate. our instructor wanders around the room and examines everybody’s work and techniques & gives advice & just talks to us about cool stuff (he’s a muso, like me!). his comments on my drawing progressed from “good” to “nice” to “very nice!” with an emphatic nod. 🙂  i’m excited to get my pine cone drawing back & see my grade…

oooookay. on to the homework. at least i’m finished with the french revolution and moving on to the industrial revolution. those french liberals were assholes, dude. viva la marie antoinette!

listening to:

a big sigh of relief.

i had a tough evening yesterday. i was feeling pretty down on myself about my artistic abilities. i was confused as to why my photos didn’t turn out the way they were supposed to. due to the help and patience of a good friend, alan, i feel much better about it all.

i have a lot of homework to do today, i have to work out, then i’m making a birthday cake for my mamaw (she has very specifically requested white cake with milk chocolate frosting). i also have a 600-word essay due by sunday, but 600 words are cake for me….does that mean i’m making *two* cakes this weekend? ha…ha…. *crickets chirping* yeah, flat joke. sorry.

so why is it that i always get inspired when i am busiest? i just got a great idea for a painting (two, really). literally, it just came to me about ten or twenty minutes ago. i’d love to have one of them finished in time for my mamaw’s birthday celebration tomorrow so i can give it to her as a gift, but i’m not so sure that will be happening.

here is my solemn oath that, in february, i will not put off my western civ homework til the last minute just because it’s an online class. and here’s another oath that i will try very hard not to compare my work to the work of the others in my second-level drawing class (there is some AMAZING talent in that class). i should only be comparing my work to my own, striving to improve a little with each exercise or project.

i’ve been thinking for the past two years (at least) that i want to get a small tattoo on my wrist that can serve as a reminder for peace whenever i am stressed or anxious. being an artist, i am a very visual person, so i feel like this would be such a help. at first, i wanted a peace sign, but now i think that’s too generic. not that i’d ever muster up enough courage to actually get the tattoo, but i’m always thinking about what i would get. maybe a little word, like “calm” or “breathe” or something. i really like this one:

friday five:

smelling: blueberries

tasting: blueberries!

hearing: axl crunching some dog food

seeing: errol flynn & olivia dehavilland in “santa fe trail”

feeling: a soft blanket


things i should be doing right now instead of blogging:

* studying for not only tomorrow’s astronomy test, but also the first astronomy test that i still haven’t made up.

* working on three term papers– two for western civ and one for art history. they’re all due by november 9th. don’t ask me why that’s a magic number, b/c i don’t know. at least, unlike a lot of people, i do my best writing with a strict deadline, so i can actually put those off for a couple more days while i work on the rest of this list…

* my regular art history assignment for the week. good thing it isn’t due til tomorrow night. once i get this astronomy test behind me, i’ll have a little less burden on my shoulders.

* start the new art history assignment. but we’re getting into some really great stuff. we just finished up post-impressionism (toulouse-lautrec, van gogh, gaugin) & the late 19th century. next up is turn of the century art: early picasso, fauvism, expressionism, and matisse. (even though picasso was a big scammer! but i do like matisse.) so far, the chapter on impressionism has been my very favorite. it featured some of my favorite artsts: manet (NOT monet. i don’t care much for his stuff), degas, renoir… and i discovered another new favorite painting:  nocturne in black and gold (the falling rocket) by whistler. this piece was met with great negativity in its time (which was around 1875). critics said it was “unfinished” and looked like whistler threw a pot of paint in the public’s face.  i think there’s something magical about it. this picture doesn’t really do it justice, but it’s the best one i found:


wow, i got sidetracked there. see why i’m overwhelmed? aside from this growing list, i’ve got my ADD tendencies to deal with… back to the list:

* willy said i have to go to the gym three times this week if i want to keep my membership. i’ve been planning on getting my butt back into the gym for months now. i feel ick and definitely don’t look my best… heh… but that weird, rebellious streak in me won’t let me do anything anybody wants me to do. if you really want me to do something, you’ve got to tell me that i can’t do it. then i’ll do whatever it takes to make it happen.  😉

* i need to make up a menu so we can get to the grocery store. we’re running out of the bare bones basics (bread, milk…) and have needed to go to the store for a while, but we’ve scraped by. i just feel like i have too many other things to do to make the damn list!

* write my new chapters. this has to be relegated to the end of the list, though.  :/  it’s more of a treat, i suppose. i really need to get the other things done first. but it’s hard not to jump right into the things you actually *want* to do first! haha.

* get caught up on my sketches for drawing class. we’re supposed to have at least four for each class period. he doesn’t check them often at all, but by the end of the semester we have to have all the sketches done. he gives extra points for extra sketches, and for great quality. i’m just glad i don’t have an at-home assignment this week for drawing! that would just add to the list, and i might just break down, since i find my drawing assignments to be the most challenging, time-consuming, and intimidating.

* do my damn laundry!! holy cow. i’ve got at least two baskets of clean clothes to fold (my most hated chore), and then there’s the mountain of dirty laundry on my bedroom floor…

* clean the rest of my house. good grief, it’s a pig sty. except for the kitchen, because my adorable hubster cleaned it top-to-bottom on sunday. 😀  he even used *bleach* on the countertops. go ahead, ladies. you have my permission to drool and be jealous for a second. okay, that’s enough.

* to top all of this off, we have a thing to do on saturday (if you don’t know what it is, it’s b/c it’s a surprise! lol) which will take up quite a chunk of time, AND …

*NANOWRIMO STARTS ON SUNDAY!!!  eek!  i’ve been looking forward to this for almost a whole year! i’m fairly certain i’ve blogged about it before. but now that it’s getting down to the wire, i’m getting nervous. i’ve got so many other things going on right now! and i’m afraid the plot i choose won’t be good enough, or i won’t have enough in my head to keep going all month, enough words to add up to 50,000 (that’s what the word count of the average novel is)! i’m sure it’ll be fine, though. in all seriousness, it’s only around 1700 words a day, which is actually quite easy peasy for me, but i don’t always feel like writing every day. i’ve been lucky in the past month that i actually have felt like writing a lot. i’ve been a writing machine, and i really hope it lasts throughout november. now, if you feel like you might maybe want to support me a teeny bit and sponsor me on my quest to write the perfect novel (it feels weird to say that…saying i’m writing a “novel” feels like bragging or something…i can’t explain it)…aaanyway, if you might want to donate $10 or so to the cause, hop on over to my page and do it to it! the cause, by the way, is “the office of letters and light“, which brings programs into both schools and adult communities to teach and inspire writing. their young writers’ program is especially awesome! if this had been around when i was in high school, maybe things would have been different for me. maybe i wouldn’t have lost my writing confidence… at any rate, at least check out my page.  🙂

and without further ado, here are the ideas for plots for nanowrimo. these ideas were born of my own pretty little head, and while i can’t use all of them for nanowrimo this year, i will more than likely develop them into something sooner or later. so pretty please don’t steal them. if you feel so inclined to vote, just leave a comment here with your favorite plot. here are my ideas:

1. guy is a druggie. guy  meets girl, falls in love, and decides he needs to clean himself up to be “worthy” of her. girl leaves, and guy is so devastated, he goes back to his old ways, even though he doesn’t want to. he sees her face in his mind constantly, and the only thing that can numb the pain is the drugs. this will obviously be angst-filled, and i have to be in an angsty mood to write angst. if i’m not already in that mood, writing angst will put me there. it’s a good excuse to lock myself away for 30 days. 😉  it will also require a lot of research, as i have never been one to touch illegal substances (i was always afraid of getting into trouble! hahaha), and honestly don’t know that much about drug use, etc, aside from what i’ve read or seen in movies. however, i believe that this plot will be easily developed, and a sympathetic character will be easy to form.

2. a superhero realizes that he is losing his powers. he has to adapt to “normal” life. this will obviously be a little bit angsty, but i plan to include humor in it as well. nothing slapstick, though. i hate that. this plot would be a bit more of a challenge for me to develop.

3. guy and girl break up after years of a tumultuous relationship. she leaves for another man. they meet occasionally, sometimes amicably, sometimes not. both feel like their life has no meaning without the other, but they can’t get it together. he feels like he just needs to leave town, or else he’ll just keep reliving their relationship over and over again. i haven’t decided how it would end up, but it would also be very angsty. plot is based on a song by a friend. i was listening to the song when the characters popped into my head to say hello and tell their story. i haven’t written any of it down yet, which makes it eligible for me to use for nanowrimo. 🙂

4. a fictional (based on non-fiction) memoir on being a navy wife. it would be humorous but also tell the hardships of a military spouse–finding friends, jobs, home, and then leaving them all multiple times.

5.  a memoir on dating. i have some of this written in my head. it’s actually based on a specific past relationship in my life. it would be humorous with splashes of slight angst here & there.

6. a modern-day telling of cinderella. i know this has been done time & time again, but i don’t like those cheesy ones they made into movies. it would be an actual retelling of the story, only set in modern times, with relevant political and social commentary.

that’s all i’ve got for you. if there’s nothing interesting here, please let me know. my goal is to not only write a novel that satisfies me, but to write something that people will actually want to read. and not just because they know me, but because it’s just good. 🙂

okay, i’m buckling down now so i can study for tomorrow’s astronomy test and tackle the rest of this monster of a list. sigh. i’m scared. hold me?

download this:  the new moon soundtrack is amazing! WORLDS better than the twilight soundtrack, which i thought was okay, but a little too…i dunno… pop-ish? preteen-y?  this one is more indie, and has some of my fave bands (death cab for cutie, the killers, grizzly bear, thom yorke of radiohead, band of skulls…)  just click on the link and check it out! “white demon love song” by the killers and “slow life” by grizzly bear are two of my favorites on the album. also, “possibility” by lykke li is beautiful, as well as “all i believe in” by the magic numbers, which is a bonus track i received when i downloaded the album from itunes.

today’s fave etsy item: mermaid corset print by visioluxus

this is my monster list sucking the life out of me. though i don’t have nearly as nice a bod as the chick in this photo! haha



photography site

i made a new website portfolio for my photography today. it took me forever, and i even bought a domain name for it, but i can’t figure the dang thing out. *grumble*

anyway, the reason i started the new site is because of this thing going on here called trade pandemic. it’s a “homegrown art collective” that’s going to be held at the music farm on august 21st. they’re looking for all sorts of artists to submit work to be considered. i bit the bullet and did it, even though i am extremely self-conscious about *all* of my artwork. i figured photography is my best form right now, even though i’m an amateur. but who knows? maybe somebody out there will fall in love with my style.  i’ll let you know if i hear anything back. it’d be really cool to be chosen for this, but i’m not holding my breath. there is SO MUCH talent in this town, dudes, and i’m intimidated.

here’s the link, just click on it:  tiff’s photography

feeling crafty…

thanks to everybody for voting on their favorite image!  here’s the one i submitted:


i’ve been doing a lot of art/crafting lately. the other night, the hubster took me to our local goodwill store, where i scavenged for junk to upcycle. unfortunately, i forgot to take “before” pictures of some of them.

this one was an ugly brown plastic frame with an equally ugly print of birds inside. i turned it into this:


it was easy peasy! i coated the frame with a couple of coats of glossy spray paint first. then i cut the pretty paper to fit inside, and pasted it over the ugly bird print. then i used glue dots to stick the ribbon around the perimeter and tied it in a bow at the top for hanging. i haven’t decided what i’m going to do with it yet. i may just keep it for myself, i may post it in my etsy shop, i may give it away as a gift. i *have* decided to do handmade christmas again this year, so getting an early start on that would be nice…

another project i’ve been working on is an altered book. i bought this old hardcover book a while back to rip pages from to use in art projects:


obviously, it’s seen better days. i do love that it has my name on it, though. 😉  anyway, i found this picture somewhere (i forget where, if you know where it came from, please let me know so i can give them proper credit) and added some pretty text. i was inspired by the part in peter pan where they sing “you can fly! you can fly! you can fly!”  i love the part where peter says “think of a happy thought.”  and the children say “any happy little thought?”  so i added that text to this picture, because it just seemed right.


then i thought that would make a really cool book title. so i decided to make it the title of my altered book.  the book is going to be a journal for writing all your happiest thoughts. i’m going to glue some of the pages together and whitewash them to make a good surface for writing. i’m not finished with it yet–i can’t seem to get it just how i want it, but here’s what i’ve done to it so far.


i started by painting the spine/binding of the book pink

then i used mod podge to paste pretty paper to the front cover. i wrapped it around the cover just like you'd wrap a gift.

then i used mod podge to paste pretty paper to the front cover. i wrapped it around the cover just like you'd wrap a gift.

so here's what the front looked like after covering it.

so here's what the front looked like after covering it.

then i pasted another piece of pretty paper on the inside cover, and used the picture that inspired the whole project as the title page. the stuff around the photo is fabric tape, which is some awesome stuff.

then i pasted another piece of pretty paper on the inside cover, and used the picture that inspired the whole project as the title page. the stuff around the photo is fabric tape, which is some awesome stuff.

i covered the back cover the same way i did the front, and added a title to the spine & front. i've started adding some embellishments. i'll post a pic of the finished product later this weekend or early next week.

i covered the back cover the same way i did the front, and added a title to the spine & front. i've started adding some embellishments. i'll post a pic of the finished product later this weekend or early next week

in order to stay inspired to do more art projects, i need to clean up this mell of a hess:



i did get my desk area cleaned up. that is the most important thing right now, because i haven’t been doing much writing lately & i need a place to write where i will actually feel productive. plus, fall semester starts in less than a month, and willy & i will both need a place where we can hole up & do homework or study & not be distracted by dogs or tv or what have you.  so i did organize my desk area:


a spot fit for a writer/art student & an engineering student, no?

by the way, i’ve been waiting for like three years now to get  the wallpaper that’s going to go on this wall. i’m forcing the hubster to take me to a wallpaper place this weekend so we can finally order it. it’s going to be black & white damask, and i’m going to hang my big, beautiful portrait of katherine hepburn over the desk.

DSCN4980 another view of my desk area. you can sort of see the katherine hepburn portrait there on the floor on the left. also,that’s my painting area to the right. that is, when i feel like standing up to paint. usually, i sit cross-legged on the floor to paint, because i like to lean over.

DSCN4981 another cool view of my painting area.

i’ll be posting more pics of whatever projects i do as i finish them.  and i’ll definitely post more pictures of my art room once it’s all finished.