i had a tough evening yesterday. i was feeling pretty down on myself about my artistic abilities. i was confused as to why my photos didn’t turn out the way they were supposed to. due to the help and patience of a good friend, alan, i feel much better about it all.
i have a lot of homework to do today, i have to work out, then i’m making a birthday cake for my mamaw (she has very specifically requested white cake with milk chocolate frosting). i also have a 600-word essay due by sunday, but 600 words are cake for me….does that mean i’m making *two* cakes this weekend? ha…ha…. *crickets chirping* yeah, flat joke. sorry.
so why is it that i always get inspired when i am busiest? i just got a great idea for a painting (two, really). literally, it just came to me about ten or twenty minutes ago. i’d love to have one of them finished in time for my mamaw’s birthday celebration tomorrow so i can give it to her as a gift, but i’m not so sure that will be happening.
here is my solemn oath that, in february, i will not put off my western civ homework til the last minute just because it’s an online class. and here’s another oath that i will try very hard not to compare my work to the work of the others in my second-level drawing class (there is some AMAZING talent in that class). i should only be comparing my work to my own, striving to improve a little with each exercise or project.
i’ve been thinking for the past two years (at least) that i want to get a small tattoo on my wrist that can serve as a reminder for peace whenever i am stressed or anxious. being an artist, i am a very visual person, so i feel like this would be such a help. at first, i wanted a peace sign, but now i think that’s too generic. not that i’d ever muster up enough courage to actually get the tattoo, but i’m always thinking about what i would get. maybe a little word, like “calm” or “breathe” or something. i really like this one:
hearing: axl crunching some dog food
seeing: errol flynn & olivia dehavilland in “santa fe trail”
feeling: a soft blanket